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Intro II 02:39
Lavender 01:44
I'm searching for a refuge where I can say the words on my heart. Where taking chances won't set me apart. [Please don't fail me]. I'm searching for a garden rooted in our mothers' soil. A grounding to which I am loyal. Please don't fail me now. Together we'll accomplish things profound. I'm heading for the mountains away from ignorant cries. Lifting as we climb. I'm tearing down the white walls binding those around me that masquerade their legacy.
Myopia 02:05
Self critique, self crippling. Make the possible unattainable. "You've got to let it go" a self plea. This mentality is unsustainable. My reach, far as the eye can see. My eyes are playing tricks on me. Hid from view, beyond periphery. Pretense in imaginary. Can't see past my own illusion. Remove the lens and just let go. Self honesty is fucking hard it seems. These days it's all an act. Find clarity in my own truth. Head high, they'll be no turning back. If hindsight is 20/20 take a step back and show them what you're fucking made of. I can let go. Step back.
What You Sow 01:31
How did we get here? Because we think we aren't there. How did this happen? We looked the other way. Not by our intentions, they gave us distractions. They fucked our humanity and threw us away. My time is spent. Mind mind is spent. My life is spent searching for a way out. Limbo with satisfaction. Am I doing enough? Plauged by no reaction. Only awareness will kill us all.
Beverly 01:14
Flourishing, then wither away. We look to the skies for a chance of rain, but is it possible to grow without the pain? Healing and suffering are one in the same. Flourishing, then wither away. This soil carries a familiar name, but is it possible to grow without the pain? Healing and suffering are one in the same. Run with the feeling, let it go. If not for pain you wouldn't know the depths of your own courage show. Flourishing, then wither away. Plucking daisies for a better day. But is it possible to grow without the pain? Healing and suffering are one in the same.


released February 4, 2020

Recorded by Rollie(aka Erol Ulug) in Santa Ana, CA


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